I waited patiently for the Beloved, who heard my cry and came to me.
A meditation for when you find yourself waiting
Waiting comes in many forms, we wait for results, a change in circumstances, warmer weather, for the pain of a devastating grief to lessen, we sometimes sense that we’re waiting but we don’t know what for.
It can bring feelings of frustration, impatience, powerlessness, anger and sadness.
There’s also the kind of waiting that becomes a comfort, a place to hide. Waiting until I have enough money. Waiting until I feel ready. Waiting until my circumstances change. Waiting until everything’s lined up as I think it should be before I move forward. This kind of waiting, the kind that eliminates having to trust, that eliminates taking any kind of risk, can keep us trapped in small spaces.
In the stillness of this waiting what do you notice?
What feelings are present for you?
Do you feel anything in you body – sensations? Tightness? Pain?
It may help to name what you’re noticing, without judgement or opinion, to simply name it. If your feelings feel heavy or negative remain observant and try not to push them away. It may help to gently place them down in front of you in a space that is compassionate and met with the love of your Beloved.
If it feels safe to do so, remain present to what you’ve noticed, give some space to the emotions or to how your body is carrying this waiting time.
Do theses feelings have images attached to them? Do they have colour, shape or form?
Does a memory surface?
Continue to notice what comes up for you.
We will have a few moments of silence for you to continue noticing and giving space for what you feeling to be seen and met with compassion.
As you remain present to what it’s like for you to be waiting, do you notice any needs that surface?
What would help you here?
What graces do you want from God?
What may you need from those closest to you?
What do you need to offer yourself?
How can you rest more deeply into kindness and love in this waiting time?
Is there anything that God is offering to you as you wait?
What gifts may this time be bringing you?
To end I want to read these short verses from Psalm 40…
I waited patiently for the Beloved,
who heard my cry and
came to me.
Love raised me from the pits of
out of confusion and fear,
and set my feet upon a rock,
making my steps secure.
There is a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to the Beloved.
May many see and rejoice, may they
our their trust in Love.
I acknowledge and join with you in your waiting and the challenge that it brings. I offer you hope, kindness, compassion and love.
I offer reassurance that this too shall pass and that your waiting will give way to something new, something different, something good.