You make yourself known to me when I commit myself into your hands. You are ever my strength and comforter.
Why do You seem so far from me,
O Silent One?
Where do You hide when fears
I boast and strike out against
those weaker than myself,
even knowing I shall be caught in
a snare of my own making.
When I feel insecure,
I look for pleasure,
greed grips my heart and I
banish You from my life.
In my pride, I seek You not,
I come to believe, “I am the Creator
of my world.”
I even prosper at times:
your Love seems too great for me,
out of my reach;
as for my fears, I pretend they
do not exist.
I think in my heart, “I do not need
adversity will come only to others.”
My eyes watch carefully for another’s
I wait in secret like a spider
in its web;
I wait that I might seize those who
are weaker than myself,
draw others into my web,
that I might use them to
Like me, the fearful are crushed,
we fall by our own illusions.
Then we think in our heart,
“I do not deserve Love;
my Beloved has forgotten me,
I am alone with my fears forever.”
Awaken, O Love! O You who created me,
return to my side;
forget me not in my weakness.
Why do I turn my back to You,
and say in my heart, “You will
not take notice of me?”
You do see me. Yes, You know
my anguish and fears;
You make yourself known to me
When I commit myself into your hands.
You are ever my strength and comforter.
Help me break the webs
I have woven,
To seek out and forgive my illusions
until You find not one.
For You are my Beloved forever;
All that is separate from You
will disappear through Love.
O my Beloved, You hear my heart;
strengthen me and answer
my soul’s Cry!
May I live with integrity, as
a loving presence in the world.
May my will be one with your Will!